Truth: We live in a society dominated by social media, which is in turn ruled by perfection- perfectly set photos of perfectly set lives of perfectly perfect people- one can fast fall into a pit of feeling perfectly imperfect. Please do not get me wrong, I loveeee Instagram and Pinterest and all of the other social media sites available for inspiration as much as the next person! There are times though it all gets overwhelming….. and the day comes when you’re trying to do your thing, and it just isn’t working in that perfectly portrayed way.
I fell in love with this sweater from H&M for the holidays and couldn’t wait to take pics of it perfectly paired with my patent leather red boots! However, when I finally did put on the ensemble I was getting ready for a long work shift, struggling to finish a 10 page paper, studying for an exam the next day, and balancing laundry, dinner, and holiday prep. Despite feeling overwhelmed I asked my Sweet Babboo to take a few quick snaps; we went out and took a bunch of photos, then I rushed off to try and put a dent in everything I needed to accomplish.
When I finally got the chance to look at the photos, my first thought was “what a mess! These will never see the light of day, much less the glow of the internet.”
My sweater is covered in dog hair, my own hair is frizzy, there’s no life in my eyes or smile. Anyone who has ever blogged has had this photoshoot- the one you pushed and to your eyes is flawed, unworthy, and imperfect.
There was a good break down as I sat staring at the dog haired covered jolliness. I couldn’t balance it all, and do everything to Instagram perfection. I put the pics away expecting to never look at them again, of course things never happen how we expect- I came across this photo from the shoot on my phone and had a realization:
My life isn’t perfect.
I’m not perfect.
Those are really hard things to admit.
Truth: I don’t have to be perfect- the dog hair shows I have a puppy who adores me and always wants to be as close as possible; the pictures in and of themselves show I have an amazing husband who is willing to drop everything to help me. I need to focus not on the little imperfections, but on the big picture: I have a job I love. I am blessed to be able to continue my education. I am blessed to not only have food, but enough to have to make a decision on what to cook. I am blessed to have so many clothes that laundry doesn’t have to be done right away. I am blessed to be able to do a hobby I love, one that makes me happy.
Truth: Yes, I get tired, and stressed, and overwhelmed, but show me the one perfect woman who posts a picture that doesn’t have any imperfections outside that little frame.
I’m making a promise to be easier on myself in the future, to not judge myself, to let myself drop the ball from time to time. Despite the initial heartache they cause, I’m glad to have these pictures to look back on to remind myself: it’s all going to be ok.
Do you do the same thing? I’d love to hear how you accomplish everything you have to do!